I've gone through some intense artistic shifts in the last few years: the commitment to leave Graphic/Web Design behind and focus on Fine Art (you can read about that HERE); taking courses in Icon Writing both in Seattle and Italy; doing two extremely personal groups of work, one about the loss of my father and one about the loss of my "way" (you can see those works HERE and HERE); and getting the chance to experience being part of a Gallery Setting. So now it is pretty well into 2013 and I am doing more internal work than putting paint to surface, but I feel something BIG coming on. BIG people, PRETTY DARN BIG.
It started with something someone said to me while in Italy attending aforementioned Icon Writing Workshop, after she had viewed my artwork on my portfolio site. She said I painted the Divine Feminine. "BONG" went an internal bell. I paint what?
See, I've always predominantly drawn/painted/depicted the female form (other than a brief detour into pet portraits). And I realized that I've always been a little embarrassed by that. I never really dug around as to WHY I would be; it's not like women haven't been the main subject of artists since, you know, FOREVER. This is what I've come up with: I was embarrassed because I didn't really know why and I didn't know how people would judge this - that either they'd think a) I was a lesbian or b) I was contributing to the objectification of women or c) that a woman painting women was "girly art" and not "serious" or "high" art. (disclaimer: I have no prejudice against lesbians, nor would it have been horrible to have gone down that road. It's just not my road, and the negative feelings I had about that possible judgement was that my art would be written off as "lesbian" art rather than just "art" - same problem women have making work and having it be judged as "feminist" or "female" art rather than, uh, just art.)
The truth is I just have always painted women because they are beautiful to me and that has what has come out when I make art. Also I think all artwork is really about the artist or the artist is in there somewhere, and I'm a woman so to tell my stories there is going to be a woman there. And now there is a different new special sacred reason. I REVEAL THE DIVINE FEMININE.
Ok try to follow me here - this part gets tricky - painting about myself, consciously or unconsciously, is revealing what it's like to be me, a woman, in my life journey. I am an expression of the Divine Feminine - by, you know, being a woman. What is the Divine Feminine, exactly? Well, the sacredness of God that is a Girl, and is reflected in all of us, men and women, but carried more exclusively MOSTLY by souls in the female container/body. Goddesses, the Divine Femme revealed in myth and stories, carry the archetypes of this long neglected aspect of God.
Once I started thinking more deeply about this, and researching this, I decided I wanted to be more conscious about my work and the Divine Feminine. I have 3 groups of work in my head right now at this moment, jostling to get out, but not quite ready to be born. But when they are, oh girl. They are going to be POWERFUL. And this gets even juicier (uck I hate that word. hmm. can't think of a good enough synonym). I believe, as many do, that the world is waking up to the fact that until the Divine Feminine takes Her rightful place next the Divine Masculine, we will perish. And that it is primarily the work of WOMEN to restore Her - by waking up themselves. In order to wake up, we need to dig in the dirt, confront our demons, shed our addictions, gather together, empower ourselves: so that we can tap into our special gifts and give them back to the world - and in the process of healing ourselves, heal our planet.